ian mills

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 22:54:46 GMT

i actually have the car at my disposal tonight and i realized i have nowhere to go.

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 03:24:07 GMT

hazelnut creamer

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 02:29:16 GMT

using the fact that i felt slightly sick this weekend to (mostly) avoid contact with the outside world. first sign of cold and i already want to curl up in blankets and sweaters and drink hot cocoa for the remainder of the forseeable future. i got cast as the lead in the school play about opera. maybe now i can channel the inner james earl jones voice thats been hiding in my throat just waiting for me to start smoking heavily or start gargling blood on my vocal cords.
been having strange daydreams/fantasies about getting into knife fights/fist fights. hopefully these become realities. (assuming i come out victorious/without fun-sucking injuries)
soup+emergenC+tons of water=preventable downtime in these colder months.
i dunno how long im trying to stick around at my parents house, the clock might be ticking

body cop will destroy you and invigorate the senses. witness the audio spectacle on october 28th at 1807 3rd street NE dc. particpants include dc's own the guilt, bay area hype men acts of sedition and blown cover band cunt sparrer. space postcard courtesy of ms.beck levy

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 03:38:30 GMT

Fri, 29 May 2009 01:00:31 GMT

FUCK MIXED MESSAGES UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH

this is when i start writing haikus to tell girls how i feel
im leaving on a fucking boat on saturday ugh. dont want to. ill be back.
I HATE TALKING OVER TEXT MESSAGES but sometimes its more relaxing

Thu, 21 May 2009 22:26:44 GMT

i'm having trouble articulating my thoughts. i find myself slurring my words when i talk because i want to say so much.
i also think im slightly in love with this girl from my school who plays the cello. i guess alex can figure out who that is because he's the only person that reads this.i feel nervous around her sometimes. awwwghhhhhhfihdsjfodjf
boom roasted

its 4:15, is your pipe clean...

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 22:21:17 GMT

been treating this week like i'm already on spring break. running around in the woods all day after school, doing my homework at like 1230, staying up all night reading. i've smoked 4 cheap ass dutch masters in the past 4 days in various woods (white rock near tonys house, purple kush420 mountain near mikes house, the pond near my house) and i think its taking a toll on my lungs.
stoked to have a date with mike on prom night. except we will just be hanging out at my house. pregaming the nhl99 session at my house, then pregaming the after party. then driving to philadelphia real early the next day. oooof.
a bunch of my friends are getting into "relationships" again. which makes me want to finally do something with the fairly obvious crush ive been nurturing for like 2 months.
stoked for dc takes over philly. stoked for fine lines/boost 7" to finally happen.

please post good spring type music in the comment box. ive been listening to- the remainder tape, carrie nations, brand new, boost demo, lemuria

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 21:18:46 GMT

i am getting really bored sitting at home all the time. no one at school ever hangs out with me. and i see my friends, but mostly on the weekends and whatnot...i reality i will probably end up getting a job or something so i wont just sit on the computer or play guitar in my basement forever after school. /pity me

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 03:26:09 GMT

i have so much school work and i just keep playing tetris marathon on facebook!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WHY CANT I CONCENTRATE MAYBE I SHOULD START USING DRUGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

weeooohweeeooohwee

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 01:16:32 GMT

got the super souped up DVD version of blade runner at CD cellar yesterday. yet to watch it. after that I went to the turboslut/pygmy lush show, it was cool, ate some falafel (not before it was picked clean by my friends) picked up that new LP, it fucking destroys.

www.youtube.com/user/StarWarsAudioDramas is what ive been listening to every night before I fall asleep. nerdz

things are going at an odd pace...school mostly is starting to drag real hard. thinking so far in the future (the summer mainly) makes things go by at a glacial pace reserved for sloths and inept government programs. i have a lot of things to look forward to this summer- the fine lines tour, dads side family vacation, a cool job that ive got lined up (working at elementary schools with special education and kids with learning disabilities, mostly running around playing kickball and getting paid a lot), bike assault

i need to find something legit to do after school because most days I go home fucking exhausted, check my computer stuff or whatever, and look at my nice comfy bed thinking "i'll just take a nap", wake up at 8oclock pm to your mom telling you dinners ready. maybe i could start actually doing my homework instead of doing it in school, i can squeak by either way.

i kind of forgot about this girl that I had a mega crush on, maybe because i haven't seen her in a while? funny how fast those things fade. HEARTS AND THOUGHTS THEY FADE, FAAAAADE AWAY

this fuck buttons song has this prehistoric jungle type drum thing going on that reminds me of the part in chrono trigger at the town fair with the caveman dancing

fml2k9

THE FUTURE

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 19:32:07 GMT

3 piece suits
cigars
scotch
pocket watches
shiny shoes
cuff links
handguns
butterfly knives

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 22:27:52 GMT

A
- Age: 16
- Annoyance: people making "mountains out of molehills". chill out
- Animal: red panda

B
- Beer: yeungling. i am more of a "hard liquor" person
- Birthday: october 29th
- Body Part on opposite sex: hips
- Best feeling in the world: VICTOLYY
- Best weather: warm and breezy
- Been on stage?: i am doing this survey to kill time before i need to be at my school for the play!
- Believe in Santa: elf liberation front.

C
- Candy: take-fives. the one with pretzel
- Color: greej
- Chocolate/Vanilla: chocolate
- Chinese/Mexican food: im all about cheap chinese food.
- Cake or pie: pie.
- Continent to visit: asia
- Cheese: never got into cheese too much.

D
- Day or Night: night
- Dance in the rain: i have.

E
- Eyes: green
- Everyone...:
- Ever failed a class?: yes

F
- Full name: Ian Christopher Mills
- First thoughts waking up: alex and tony are spooning. LOLZ
- Food: eat to live, don't live to eat

G
- Greatest Fear: being old and realizing i haven't done very much
- Goals: finish high school with OK grades
- Gum: nom nom
- Get along with your parents?: yeah

H
- Hair Color: Brown

- Height: Like 5'11

- Happy: ehhh
- Holiday: SPRING EQUINOXXX

I
- Ice Cream: girl scout cookie one
- Instrument: probably the guitar, but my favorite sounding instrument is the cello

J
- Jewelry: sometimes i wear bracelets
- Job: none right now because of school, but i might be working at a grocery store or lifeguarding in the summer.

K
- Kids: babies are annoying. kids are cool when they're like 5 and insane
- Kickboxing or karate: chessboxing
- Keep a journal?: not really

L
- Longest Car Ride: ottawa
- Love: IS JUST A LIE
- Laughed so hard you cried: yeah

M
- Milk flavor: milk-flavored? i dont like milk that much
- Movies: gory, comedic
- Motion sickness?: yes :( no roller coasters for me
- McD’s or BK: mcdonalds coffee is not bad.

N
- Number of Siblings: 1
- Number of Piercings: zero
- Number: 66642069

O
- One wish: i really couldnt think of anything

P
- Perfect Pizza: white cheese, garlic
- Pepsi/Coke: i drink coke sometimes. my favorite soda is fresca though

Q
- Quail: yes. quail.

R
- Reason to cry: overwhelmed
- Reality T.V.: MADE on MTV rules, so does TRUE LIFE
- Radio Station: NPR? haha im a hippie.
- Roll your tongue: yes. i can also pick my nose with it
- Ring size: 66642069

S
- Song: carolina on my mind by james taylor
- Shoe size: 12
- Salad Dressing: i just soak them in olive oil and chickpeas. greece!
- Sushi: the ones at trader joes with the little tofu strips rule
- Skipped school: i have, not very much though (what would I do?)
- Slept outside: yeah
- Smoked?: si. since i am going to start wearing a suit and carrying a gun all the time i might as well start smoking.
- Skinny dipped?: yes.
- Shower daily?: not really
- Sing well?: cant say i sing "well"
- In the shower?: sometimes
- Swear?: a little
- Strawberries/Blueberries: strawberries

T
- Time for bed: generally around 12...too late
- Thunderstorms: sweet!

U
- Unpredictable: growing up with my mom, who is the most predictable person ever, i have grown to resent patterns

V
- Vacation spot: the fuckin beach

W
- Weakness: cookies
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: i dunno. none of them i hope
- Who makes you laugh the most: not one person in particular
- Worst feeling: being overwhelmed
- Wanted to be a model?: not rly
- Where do we go when we die?: the fuckin ocean

X
X-Rays: i have had a few for mah teeth
Ex's: im glad yr not being so fucking mean to me!

Y
-Year it is now: 2009
-Yellow: Purple.

Z
- Zoo animal: hippopotomai

LAST PERSON WHO…
1. Slept in a bed beside you? valerie
2. You went to the mall with? alex and tony...aha
3. You went to dinner with? my father
4. You talked to on the phone? spoons
5. Made you laugh? my dad
6. Hugged you? dunno
7. Said they loved you? my mom
8. Held your hand? who knows
9. Spoke with? stepfather

falls church layout crew

Mon, 02 Feb 2009 01:15:01 GMT

a lot of people have incredibly high expectations.

all of these people need a SIX HUNDRED AND SIXTY SIX POUND BONG SESSION

DRINKING BLACK COFFEE, STARING AT THE WALL

Wed, 28 Jan 2009 20:39:02 GMT

i have been replacing "sleeping" with "drinking coffee". i blame society.

i want to set my yard on fire as long as it melts this god forsaken ice.

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 03:25:07 GMT

i think the word "crush" is dumb and overused but is still representative of what im going through. complications.

i wonder (sometimes).

today was another day with little to no human contact. i didnt make a conscious effort to find any though. mostly i stood on my stairs and stared at the wall.

spending time in maryland is strange and hazy and beautiful

Mon, 19 Jan 2009 19:00:51 GMT

im fucking lonely.
my parents are home maybe 1 hour before they go to sleep, and having no human interaction for hours at a time is making me go crazy

long boring

Mon, 22 Dec 2008 01:46:06 GMT

i have had a busy week. on wednesday instead of going to the winter concert I went to dinner with erik sutch and kenny and james willett and a colorful cast of other people for kristens birthday. there was a subtle food fight going on the whole time. our food was really bad. the next day I stayed home from school cuz I didn't feel so great. my grandma also broke her leg that day and got surgery.
the next day I had band practice and got chipotle and watched freaks and geeks and stayed home from school.
on friday after rehearsal I got a ride to ryan zellmans house and we went to baltimore to see sick fix and some other bands at ccas. the first band sounded like dinosaur jr and was way awesome. i watched sick fix and then tried to find orioles pizza with jubert. it took a while. we ate our whole pizza on a street corner so we wouldn't have to share when we got back to ccas. ambrose was back that night. i went home and played texas holdem with lydia and edward till like 3 am.
on saturday i had band practice and then there was a clusterfuck trying to find rides for everybody to the vermont hurler. alex attas and I got sam from the metro and ate bagels in mclean. the show at the vermont hurler was fun. i watched spice world and listened to the new i am awake songs. they are so good. we played first. then timber played and then katie dance. they sucked. i didnt watch the touring bands. it was dumb to do a show on the night of the chase reunion.
i bailed out early with james and ambrose to the corpse fortress. timber played at like 830 and they only played 4 songs of the 7" and it was awesome. a fitting end. I have like 10 timber shirts now and am wearing one as I type this. the rest of the show was like taking a time machine to 2003. walls of death!
today i didnt do anything. it was nice.

Fri, 12 Dec 2008 01:29:13 GMT

most of the food i eat is frozen, wrapped in plastic and cardboard, driven thousands of miles across the country and then consumed by me. i'm a terrible person.

it sucks to put a lot of energy into something just to have someone shit all over it. this makes me rethink things i thought i was set on.

ftw

lolz abound

Sun, 26 Oct 2008 20:25:33 GMT

i now have a real life "live" journal on paper so i don't use this as much.
things get stranger every day. my birthday is in a few days and it's weird.
i've been finding things to do in my neighborhood since i dont know anyone who lives here. these include skating, skipping stones, writing music for my powerviolence band with jubert, and reading.

hiccups

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 21:07:15 GMT

today was weird. we got out at 12 but it seemed like we had been in school all day. after school alex ditched me even though we had made plans for today about a week in advance. he probably went with eric to chipotle or something that they do every single fucking day. i am waiting for them to get married or something. i called ryan and he told me the max levine show at GMU was cancelled because it was raining. i hung out with valerie and watched high school stories on MTV. these pranks, for the most part, are really bad. then i went and failed my drivers test. now im home and it still seems really early.

sweet music blog-

football, rva, p0nx

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 03:37:56 GMT

a lot has happened in my life since i updated this last with a completely serious post.
last weekend was incredibly busy, but it seemed like i didnt do that much.
on friday, i managed to make it through school without killing myself, which is an accomplishment in itself.
then, after a grueling rehearsal that i also didnt kill myself through (another accomplishment), i hung out with david and malindi for a bit to get supplies such as green paint and to go to cvs and my house to make dorito nachoes.
then we drove over to falls church to get stoked for the football game. i dont really remember what happened or who we played but we lost. no suprises.
after the game we had the worst plans ever. we were all gonna go to the kosmas house, but then we all didnt have rides there.
after running around for 20 minutes to make eric, valerie, and malindi not leave without me, alex, tony, mike, and max, i learned that i was going to richmond with alex attas and ilya THAT NIGHT.
i had been under the impression that we were leaving in the morning, giving me time to play some fucking ninja.
so we finally all make it to valeries house, drenched from the rain. mike tony alex and i of course take a group shower, like after all football games. it was pretty sexy and the obvious highlight of my weekend.
after a while, alex and ilya picked me up. and teased me about val. ughhh
so i was in the car, already falling asleep. alex of course then asks me "so ian...you drink a little, right?"
this was the last thing i wanted to hear, because i wanted to drive down 495, shuffle into corys house, and fall asleep.
we all go back to the mclean area and alex calls his friend dan who i am not fond of thats 21 to go buy alky haul. its already 12 and we cant get any. i am not upset in the least. i do get an arnold palmer at 711 though.
we start the drive there, which takes a while even with no traffic. i finally can fall asleep, but manage to stay awake once we get into richmond. we were staying in the fan so there are lots of drunk annoying college kids. wooohoo.
we get to corys house which is on cary and meadow streets. its not very exciting.
i eat some pizza, and fall asleep on the couch in the kitchen. its very comfy.
i wake up pretty early the next morning, even though i didnt get much sleep. i just lie in the couch for a while, chillin. eventually ilya and mary start making pancakes and i pretend to be asleep so i dont have to help, but can still reap the benefits. i get up after a while and eat some of the pancakes. they're not very good. i did appreciate them making food, because this was a very bro house with nothing to eat except PBR.
cory isnt getting back from virginia beach till like 1 so alex and steven take me on a little tour of richmond. its a nice town. i would like to live there someday, or have a better visit. we go to this weird hipster clothing store called rumours that also has a super sweet but small record selection and apparently does shows a bunch and bands like the catalyst and shit play there. i talked to the lady who worked there about it and it sounds really sweet. im suprised its not lame hipster shit there, seeing as how its right next to VCU. i bought 2 7",s the brainworms/tubers and mannequin/transisor transistor split.
then we go to this mostly vegan coffee shop on harrison street. alex talks to their friend hariss (LOL!!) as hes closing up. hes in the band friendly fire and is a general cool dude. he gave me a vegan blondie for cheaps. i take one of the menus as a brochure. then i think we went back to the house.
cory got their when we were getting back and we eventually started recording. this was a long and tedious and not that fun process. the basement was a bad place to record because due to limitations we couldnt really record live. whatever its just for a demo.
after 6 hours or so its all done. i do most of my parts in one take. i realize it could have been better but whatever i was kinda nervous. alex and cory take forever. when ilya is recording his part there was some super anti-abortion lady screaming on a megaphone outside on cary street. this wasnt even next to a abortion clinic or anything. i remember because i was talking to valerie on the phone and she said she could hear her yelling. alex went and talked to her and asked her what was up, and she said how if you dont accept jesus as your savior yr going to hell. i wanted to yell god sucks but that would be rude.
i got kinda bored because everyone at the house started drankin so i just walked around the fan for a bit. its nice. i wish i had brought a bike. you can get anywhere in richmond on a bike in like 20 minutes maximum.
there was gonna be some big party that night. luckily i had to go home. ilya drove me home and it seemed like it took no time at all. he dropped me off at valeries and i told mom i was at dads. i have to lie a lot to her but i dont really feel bad about it. eric and suzanne were there and eric was cool enough to give us some time alone. sometimes hes not a dick.
the next day i was gonna make covers and shit for the demo but ilya called me and said they didnt finish doing vocals (probably cuz they were drunk).
i hung out with valerie and watched i heart huckabees. its good. my parents hate that movie but fuck them i hate them too
then i went to the show. it was so good. this band secret message machine played and they sounded a little like neutral milk hotel. it was sweet. matt bowman and bret rushia were there too, so was ryan zellman and other cool people. acheronian is this sweet doomy noisy band that this guy tristan from around here is in, i was outside for their set but whenever the door opened it sounded like satan. literally.
apparently police and thieves had to go so they played next. this is the second time fine lines has played after a much, much bigger band. they were really good and seemed stoked on the house even though they're all older guys and everything.
fine lines played next and it was great. all the mason kids got really into it and i felt really good about the show, even though corys guitar fucked up for the entirety of the first song. we also played tourettes by nirvana and everyone went nuts. it ruled. joey was there and that made me really happy. he invited me to some party but i was like nah man i got school in a few hours. the police and thieves guy complimented us, especially on the nirvana cover.
black powder started to play but valerie and i had to go. i would write a more emotional response but this livejournal is all about hard, straight facts. so that was last weekend. next weekend i'll do later because alex rock wants to read this entry

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 18:23:11 GMT

i tried to make this post interesting enough for my new readers-

tags- shitty music, georgetown, yuppies, gentrification, kurt vonnugeut, the rock and roll hotel, hipster dance nights, keffiyehs, "underground" rap, trust funds

punks wrapped up in fucking flags i'd like to wrap you up in body bags

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 21:28:50 GMT

its 4:58 and im waiting for it to turn to 6 so i can go on the metro for a long time to go see defiance ohio. jubert bailed out to hang with his gaithersburg friends that are going to college soon. thats ok. i would do that too except i dont have any friends. that are going to college. well i guess kenny and erik already left and i already hung out with amir. and i talked to madeline dellaria. amir texted me today saying "i'm in college. lol." and that was it. he ends all his text messages in lol. "yeah i broke up with danielle...lol". it's a interesting note about his character. what a card. alex wont go to the show either because he's going to katie gianturcos birthday party. even though he likes defiance ohio. this girl morgan who looks like she got hit with warped tour/hot topic in the face asked me if i was going to see defiance ohio tonight. apparently this band is really big now. when i did see them last time there were a lot of people there. there will probably even more people. and even more annoying people. i think a lot of people are annoying so i wouldnt take that to heart if you're reading this. a lot of people have complemented fine lines band. i think thats cool. erik said we sounded like dinosaur jr. which is kinda true. i listened to this band that gideon likes a lot called unwound and we sound a bit like them, but more ultra distort. i wish it was a crust punk band. jubert and i keep meaning to start our band, i want to, but he lives SO FAR AWAY. dennis said we could practice at the party pit. which is pretty far away from me too. fuck virginia. FTW. i used to write like this in my old blog but im really bored and just felt like writing a lot. i try to never think "im bored" but when im at my dads house there is really nothing to do. it's either this, watch TV (no cable and it cuts out every 5 minutes), sit on the porch of the apartment (not that great) or kill myself. maybe i should bring an old acoustic guitar over here to entertain myself. it also sucks because i have no privacy. i cant pick my nose or scabs or write dumb shit in livejournal or jerk off or play air guitar or anything. the whole house is about as big as my moms living room. i havent seen my mom in like 3 days because she works 3 jobs. this kinda sucks. my sister sucks for going to a really expensive college. i dont wanna go to college. maybe a little bit. school started last week. i noticed last night that I was really tired at like 930 pm. even though generally i dont get tired till like 4 am. i think im burned out already. school feels different from last year (in a bad way). our principal is also really terrible. a facebook group was created about her policies and it already has nearly 300 people. on the 2nd day of school it had about 15% of the entire school in it. and not everybody even has facebook. i made some new friends though. a lot of the freshmen are cool. we got the cops called on us for putting alex rocks brother in a trash can in loehmans plaza but i think he secretly likes it because his friends think hes cool because upperclassmen know him. lincoln scott rules too and is my informant. there is also the spy in french class. hannah brehms brother is really cool and reminds me of myself a little bit. i should ask him to hang out. there is this girl i have been talking to a lot and thats cool. i guess. my dad made me google the difference between blimp and dirgible. blimps have pressure inside that outweighs the outside which is how they retain shape. dirgibles have rigid outsides. wikipedia is very informative. alex rock broke up with his girlfriend and its a giant clusterfuck. shes so crazy. shes trying to make alex feel bad. thats fucked up. she also owes me money because i watched after her cats when she was on vacation and i'll probably never get it. thats really the worst part about the break up. i miss david spoonboy. he is my favorite p0nk. right now he's probably protesting the RNC/DNC! thats pretty fucking cool. i posted a zine he wrote about electoralism that's really good on my livejournal. its a few entries back because i dont post as much on this as i used to. do you think i should start looking into graduating early? i dont know if i should. if i hate school more than i do now next year i will. then i'd have to break it to my mom that i dont want to go to college, i want to live in a house in DC with 10 other people and steal food from grocery stores and be a bike messenger or walk dogs or some stereotypical punk job like that. shes pretty supportive of whatever i do hopefully though. i told her i dont think i want to go to college for at least 5-6 years after high school, but im really just saying that because i dont think i want to go at all. theres a bunch of people at my school that went to VCU or whatever and it seems like they're just extending high school. i dont like drinking or frat parties sorry. maybe its just my natural not-be like everyne else syndrome. maybe i should start xing up and listening to throwdown so people can asume that shit without having to ever talk to me. i'm still not vegan even though i've made efforts. im willing to put some effort in but not enough (in anything) because i have no spine. my history teacher is cool but everyone in that class talks to much. we read some stuff from guns germs and steel and i forgot that it was due that class, so i told him that i forgot. he seemed ok with it but he doesnt accept late work. i turned it in anyway and participated in the discussion. we have this packet we have to read from some book about patriarchy and institutions and womens rights from the beginning of human history. i think i payed enough attention in the different kind of dude fest workshops to do OK on it. was that a dumb thing to say? whatever. i wonder if sam palmer would start a crusty hardcore band with me. he doesnt play any instruments to my knowledge but i can see him being a ferocious frontman. ok well im running out of things to say but you can expect my blog to be like this for a while until i can condense my thoughs to short and easy to read bullet points.

suck/rule

Tue, 19 Aug 2008 03:34:13 GMT

im catsitting for an annoying girl and not getting paid very much.

school is as bleak as ever.

hanging out still rules.

newish friends moving away/going back to college when you just started getting close sucks.

music blogs suck 99% of the time.

writing doomy pop songs in your bedroom but not having anything to record them with sucks.

its still two thousand and hate.

the fact that its hard for me to articulate what im thinking except whether it sucks or rules sucks.

brand new

Thu, 07 Aug 2008 19:50:02 GMT

if i had a lemon,
and you had a lemon